an hour and a half

i leave soon. REALLY soon.

it's kind of scary, really, how fast this semester has gone by. i still remember sitting in my room blogging about how i was leaving in 2 days and wasn't packed. how did time go by so quickly?

so many changes, so many friends, so many memories. if i were asked to explain what i've learned, i wouldn't even know where to begin. i feel like i've gained so much confidence this semester. i have long dreamed of being a woman, and as frightening as it sounds, i think i am getting there. many of my friends here might not know it, but they don't know who i was before. to be honest, i'm not sure i do, either.

i hope i have learned to stand strong, but not alone. i hope i have learned to search for truth, and not simply swallow what is fed to me. i hope i have learned how to build friendships. i hope i have learned how to trust, and heal, and hope. so many fears have been realized, so many anxieties uncovered, but somehow i have managed to pull through this far.

an hour and a half. well, a little less than that now. i hope i will spend it well.

i hope i will spend life well.