last day

so, i have one more day left home. well, two, really, if you count thursday. but i leave thursday at 1ish and so it doesnt really count, i think.

i dont know what to think about next semester. people keep asking what my expectations are, and i never know how to answer them because to be honest i dont really have any. at least none that are obvious at the moment. i'm sure once i get there i will start to realize all the things that are different than i thought they would be. but for now i am content to think of myself as open to anything, completely blank, and ready for whatever comes my way.

packing was an ordeal. i am not by nature an organized person, and i had to fit four months into a few bags, and that is no easy task. i took the whole day yesterday to figure out what i had and what i still needed. i am just about ready, i think. but then again, i have very little idea what i am getting myself into. probably i will get there and realize i've packed all the wrong things. this wont bother me too much, though, i think, except for the amount of time i spent in packing it all.

in my heart, at least, i am ready to go, ready to leave this place again. i watched a movie tonight with my parents. i never asked the name, and didnt really pay attention, but there was this one scene in an airport that got me excited. the scene itself was quite boring really, but i loved that it was in an airport. i know i will probably hate airports in a few days, but just now they speak of worlds i have yet to see, and one in particular i will be seeing very soon.